Love, Eventually.

Since I'm well aware that everybody loved this blog before I even finished the first post, I decided to share it with those unfortunate enough to know about it by sharing the link on my Facebook. Web traffic jumped to new levels as I watched my view count triple from 1 to 3 and then slowly increase to subsequent numbers such as 4 and 5 and the eventual 6 (I really had to pray for that one). Business was booming and I was untouchable.

So while I basked in my newly realized popularity, a couple of my close amigos became atwitter all up on my post. It kinda went a little like this:

• Grant: Beebs you're so behind the times. Watson became the "thing" like 3 years ago.

  Yesterday at 5:36am ·  ·  1 person
• Nolan:  I know she will find this dude, become flattered, and randomly visit your room one day.

  Yesterday at 8:03am ·  ·  1 person
• Nick: Dude, she's totally gonna marry you

  Yesterday at 9:57am · 
• Nick: P.S. - ever thought about being a writer?

  Yesterday at 9:58am · 
• Andrew: NO SHES GONNA MARRY ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  and btdubs. shes gonna marry me.

  Yesterday at 12:06pm ·  ·  1 person
• Me: 

  Grant: Only helps my chances.
  
  Nolan: I think I would open the door, become nervous, and pee my pants.
  
  Nick: Not sure how I feel about marriage yet. I'm gonna need to meet/ know her for at least 3 days before I'm ready to make that huge leap. ...See More

  Yesterday at 12:25pm ·  ·  1 person
• Grant: Ok, let's settle this marriage thing. I had dibs on her from after the 2nd movie. I saw the potential that early on, while all of you nerds were still obsessed about Misty from Pokemon. While Misty was awesome, I scouted this one out early. So all claims are mine. Winner winner chicken dinner.

  Yesterday at 12:35pm ·  ·  1 person
• Me: Grant, what kinda marriage are you looking to receive from a dibs? You can't force love!! Misty should have taught you that!!!

  Yesterday at 12:45pm ·  ·  1 person
• Andrew: Grant, i had dibs from the first movie. Ever since she went back for ron, i knew i wanted that. So initial dibs is mine. Winner winner hermione makes dinner. for me. cause im her husband. one day.

  Yesterday at 3:04pm ·  ·  1 person
• Grant: By second movie, I mean before her character was even thought up. So I win. No one ups. Grant is the winner. You may now refer to her as Emma Carlton.

  Yesterday at 7:09pm · 
• Grant: Also, if you look at the comments that people like, it is obvious that I am the winner. So there.

  Yesterday at 7:13pm · 
• Andrew: By first movie, i mean the first moment she came out of her mothers womb. yep it was just baby love at first sight! so I WIN. ask emma. she'll tell you.

  Yesterday at 8:23pm ·  ·  1 person
• Nick: Just liked all statuses but GC's. Boom.

and............that's how it went.

Anyways, I got to thinking about how I'm 20, and that how within the next 10 years I'm probably going to get married. That's like....a huuuuuuuge commitment. I'm not talking about joining the 7th grade football team or taking your freshman girlfriend to homecoming, but freaking marriage. You're basically saying you want to spend the rest of your life with this person, and you haven't even lived half of your life with. How the hack am I s'posed to make that decision when my point of reference is so small? I'm not saying that love is impossible, in fact I believe it's anything but. But the odds are definitely stacked against us.

How will I know? I'd like to believe that falling in love is just like getting punched in the face, but I'm afraid that this just isn't the case (partly because getting punched in the face is just a feeling, and I believe that love is more than a feeling. But that's for another blog). I've had my fair share of attempts at love, and each has come up short. Whats more is that each of these attempts felt right at the time, but eventually failed to hold up in the long run. Or as my ECON teach would say, *high pitched guy voice* "the short run benefits were more elastic than the long run benefits. AVOCADOS!"

Okay, so he didn't really shout "avocados!", but he was thinking it.

So basically, I've been trying to think more of love as something that happens eventually. It won't smack you in the face like the scent of black coffee, but I imagine it like enjoying a cup of hot chocolate. You have to wait for really good hot chocolate, and when you're drinking it, you never want it to end (who chugs hot chocolate? Crazy stupid people. That's who). 

Love will happen eventually, but people looking for instant results will be disappointed. Take your time and have some hot chocolate on me. 'Cause I love you all :D

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